LeQuishaQ Jury Questioning

Bagelita1 hour ago

QUESTIONS CLOSED.

Jaded7 hours ago

Hello LeQuishaQ, I see a lot of criticism from the jury that I had pre-existing relationships, which is true, I have been playing these games since 2010 it's almost impossible to enter any game without former knowledge of most people - I've been around the block. However, I think people are overemphasizing the strength of these bonds. I definitely came in with a good head start, but if you look at the house I was placed in, it was all people that knew each other and on top of that my two closest friends (Tylor and Tisha) swapped into the house because of their trust in me. Even though they wanted each other out, I was able to keep them together. I think if I was placed in a house with less friendly faces from the start, it absolutely would have pushed me to create strong new bonds, but instead I chose the route of building upon the ones I had. Obviously I adore you, but we have not talked in years so playing a game with you I would not say it was an automatic locked in relationship. Houston and I have always been cool, but we're best friends who talk. Ben and I are obviously cool and in group setting together, but we don't have the individual relationship where we're talking all the time, we have not had a conversation in months. Obviously when you're in the game, any slight relationship you can use as a jumpstart in the game is a benefit so I'm definitely not saying I did not have a good foundation when I entered, but I grew the foundation. I had alliances with almost everyone and tried to balance the power in the house as long as possible. Tisha and Benopolis were constantly targeting each other and I managed to make sure both stayed in the game for as long as possible. When Tisha flipped on Houston, I made sure to console Houston and be there for him. When you talk about the Jaded you knew years ago who was going to be aggressive and cause chaos for almost no reason, yeah that is who I was when you knew me 5+ years ago. I turned 29 in this game, I'm not going to attack and be loud and dramatic for no reason at all. The fire is still there, if someone is going to press me, I will press them right back, however I knew in this game it was important for me to play behind the scenes. If I was overly vocal and chose a side between Tisha nd Benopolis, it would not have been good for me because I would have been nominated right next to them. I kept myself in a spot where I could always be safe and save my allies through vetoes or votes. It's not a coincidence that I was never nominated and it wasn't because of friendships I had before the game, but it was because of relationships I continued to build upon. Everyone in this game had people they knew coming in and no one was able to get their connections all the way deep into the game like I did. When you mention me not being straight-forward with you, it's absolutely true and I did feel terrible guilt and I am sorry because I love and adore you and you know that. When it got to this point in the game, I wanted to keep people in who I think had me highest on their totem pole and people whose decisions I could easily predict. When you won your HOH, there was something about the way you were communicating that round that gave me the thought that you did not necessarily have me high on your totem pole. When I came to you about nominations, you told me not to pretend to have your best interest in mind. When you said that, I'm not sure if you meant it (if you did-fair), but in that moment I thought OK this person either doesn't trust me OR doesn't think I trust them - either way is almost a death sentence for a relationship in the game. I knew you were someone having a lot of conversations with people so after that conversation I just could not scratch the thought that you were someone that was too unpredictable and that it was very possible you didn't have me high on your totem pole. Before that point, you were my #2 ally (3 after Tylor - but I knew he was getting evicted). So I do not think that I was upfront with you, but I also think my trepidations were valid or at least they were in my head because only you know your true thought process and totem pole in the game. I tried to limit the lies I told, but it's impossible to do that in a game. Of course you and Ben should be upset with me and I get it. I love and adore you and I do consider you a friend, but having not spoken in a few years it was more difficult for me to read you than it was back then so I think had me constantly had the same banter going for years non-stop, your remark probably would have made me laugh. It's possible I took it the wrong way, but it was the reason for my distrust.

Tisha8 hours ago

Hi LeQuishaQ, LQ, plain and simple, I probably do not get here the same way without you. I'm not going to sit here and pretend you didn't matter, because you absolutely did. You were the swing vote to save me and if you weren't here, or if you made a different decision that week... my game could look completely different, I truly acknowledge that. I also want to acknowledge that I know we were friends beforehand. We have a connection that goes years back and I know that makes my betrayal to you, hurt so much more because of this, I don't want to play that off or act like it was nothing, because it wasn't. Do I get to the end without you being cast??? Maybe not in the same way, or maybe not at all. I would have had to rely a lot more on my connections with someone like Jake. You were a massive part of my survival in this game nearly every week and I am grateful for that. It became complicated for me later in the game as I did have to make a decision that was best for me, even though it did hurt personally. Betraying you is genuinely the hardest thing I did this game, because I do care and value you and being my friend before the game made the decision so much harder, not easier. I knew you were smart, well connected and capable of making a move that could end my game. I guess in a sense, the same reason I needed you is the same reason I feared you later in the game. I genuinely do not know where your loyalties would have been between me and Benop, especially after the plotted flip to save Houston, I feel like this benefited Ben more than you and I was shocked you did it. I know you were distrusting Jake too and I thought well, how is LQ going to get Jake out without touching me or having me as a backup plan if it goes wrong. I know that probably does not make my decision hurt any less and again, I'm not going to say I handled anything perfectly. You genuinely were one of the most important people in the game to me, you helped navigate me through the rivalry with Benop and I don't think that would have been as easy without you at all. So yes, I needed you... I'll own it again! All I can say is I'm sorry for betraying and hurting you LQ, I hope you do see from a game perspective that you were an absolute force in this game and probably one of the best players and my move came from respecting how dangerous and important you were, not from me undervaluing you in any capacity. I would obviously appreciate your vote to win but I understand if that's not possible. More than anything, I do hope there is a chance we can be friends after this and talk properly. I love you no matter what and I'm still so genuinely grateful after all these years, we got to play together again. I will definitely try to make it up to you, for our friendship whatever the outcome. Thank you for the question LQ!! Let me know if there is anything else you want to know