Jenna “Cookie” Marbles Jury Questioning

Amandasings041 month ago

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TishaMod1 month ago

Hi JennaMarbles, Firstly, I am sorry I acted like a cunt and looking back I do think I could have handled parts of the situation better. I think sometimes instead of fully owning decisions I made, I tried to soften them or explain them in a way because I did genuinely feel guilty about a lot of my decisions in this game. That is on me. When I nominated you after the Taco Veto, I was extremely apologetic because I had no intentions of nominating you that week, I thought I had my options covered. I was not expecting my nom to be saved by POV and then for my other nom to be saved by the Taco Veto. After nominating you, I was talking to you the whole time, reassuring you that you had my vote to stay in a tie and I was working on votes for you to stay that week. I do see though, regardless of whether it was planned or not, I should have owned that more clearly. I also want to be honest about the triple, I don't feel like I lied, I genuinely didn’t know Jaded was doing, he was barely responding to me and he nominated immediately without even discussing with me. Before POV, i told you, I am not promising you a vote because we didn't know what was happening with the veto, as the winner wasn’t announced yet. Once the veto results happened and the renom went up, I came to you and told you honestly I was not saving you. So in that moment, I do feel like I was direct with you as I had the full picture of the nominees and I could confidently give my decision. I do think I didn't own my shit with the Tylor vote. I did lie about it, because honestly I was going backwards and forwards all day on whether to save or keep him. Everything I said to you regarding my reasons for wanting to evict him are still very true and those were not lies. In the end, I did vote to keep him really because I knew he didn't have the votes to stay. A lot of us were on call during eviction and I publicly said that I evicted Tylor because I made a plan with Jaded and Houston that I was going to lie to the rest of the house, after the eviction to try and cause distrust between everyone. So really, it was a strategic move to lie and not to just look like a flip-flopper. Though, I do wish I was just honest about it as it definitely backfired on me, I think an episode blog did kind of allude to the fact the votes to keep Tylor were me, Houston and Jaded... which Benopolis clocked and I just feel like I would have looked so ridiculous only telling this lie 30 minutes ago to everyone and then suddenly owning up. I do want you to know Lee that it was never personal against you, I genuinely did enjoy talking to you, even early on when were not in the same houses. Looking back, I understand why you are hurt and frustrated with me and I am sorry for avoiding accountability. I did make certain decisions and lie in the game at points, though I only did this trying to protect my game. I am sorry again and if you want me to clear anything else up, let me know and I will do so.

Jaded1 month ago

Jenna, I understand that. It was not that I thought you were unworthy of talking to me because I have always enjoyed your presence. The truth is, which I think people find hard to believe about me, but it's 100% a fact that I really have trouble fucking people over - like genuinely it makes me sick to my stomach having to betray people in games. I think I'm old now so I don't have the killer instinct I did when I was young where I could betray anyone. So in saying this, my point is just that I tried to limit the amount of close relationships I had in the game so that I would not have to betray many people. Of course in the end I had to take people out and people felt betrayed, but I truly tried to limit the amount of people. I always wanted people in the game who I felt like I would not feel TERRIBLY GUILTY nominating. Is that a flaw? Perhaps because they could have won and nominated me, but with people like you and Glitter it's like I knew we had a relationship where I could attempt to fall back on if you came into power, but I also needed some people at a distance in the case that I won and I had people I could nominate without feeling guilty. I'm just not someone who is going to sit in your dm's all day long and gas you up if I don't intend on being genuine about it. I always knew I had closer relationships in the game and I have known you forever so I didn't want to give you false hope in any way. Love you though.