living in the moment when you are the moment.

semi long blog coming... The first user on the site to reach 20,000 profile visits (yeah @Sin you don't count)...I joined 4 months in after constantly telling my friends I would never join this site because I know I'd get addicted again (look at me now). Being the first person to reach this milestone is somewhat shocking, but I guess not because it's a testament to just being an icon, which I always have been. "You're always living in the moment when you are the moment." Whether you met me on vockle9 when I was a sweet little 12 year old or if you were attacked by Lemjam6 at point in the midst of my era of posting Cristina Yang gifs or maybe you met me when I making real housewives multis to protect @Toque's survivor merge streak or maybe you met me on Kovaze when I was making quippy race quotes and shoving the Hannah Montana 20 year anniversary down your throat ...but regardless you all mean a lot to me as someone who has been in this community now for 16 years. I've made so many close friends through Tengaged and Kovaze who I will love forever, over 30 people that I've met in person (35 according to my notes...but i'm sure I lost count somewhere), I thought I fell in love with a Tengager (dodged a bullet there!), and really created so many friendships and memories that will last a lifetime so through the joy and the pain I'm grateful for it all. So thanks for choosing me as what I deem to be the most iconic Kovaze user because whether you are a friend or you are a fan (hi haters!), you stayed clicking on this profile and checking up on what @Jaded was doing. Thanks for making my endless summer vacation so sweet. Anyways, now after my long blog. As I've said I have been around for a LONG TIME so I have surely interacted with almost all of you at one point or another. So POST YOUR NAME if you want a well thought out opinion or question and I will answer very in depth and I promise to update EVERY SINGLE ONE. However, you must post your favorite Miley Cyrus song in the comments for it to count (or Hannah Montana...or Ashley O) xo. and thanks @Amanda for celebrating this monumental moment. @Amanda - Those are two iconic songs! I have Used To Be Young tattooed on me. Amanda, I think you are just an icon. If I had to give the most iconic kovaze user crown to someone aside from me, it would be you. You truly are a gem and I'm glad I've gotten to see a new side of you on this website. Of course we always knew each other, but never interacted much on TG. Now I think of you as a genuine friend and true delight. You are one of my biggest cheerleaders ever and just know it does not go unnoticed. Thanks for always being there for me and I'm so excited I get to play ASBB not once, but twice. @Torimarie - Firstly, two amazing songs. Angels Like You is actually my favorite as well over Jaded and the live version of You is just so much better than the studio. Anyways, Montana I adore you and I always will. I will remember sitting on calls with you and Allie and Benopolis and other people a decade ago and we could just talk for hours. We would watch Orange is the New Black and talk about it so much. You are someone who can really talk about anything and make it easy and that's a great quality to have. @ChloeKay - Ugh, such a bop! You know we never really have had individual conversations, but you are someone who I have grown to like on kovaze, which is a big change from what I felt about you before joining. You were someone who I didn't take seriously and thought you were just a troll (and you are troll-ish in some ways), but there's a lot more than that. I will never forget you posting that photo of my mom in NOBS Big Brother and truly I didn't care I thought it was funny. We're never each other's top loyalties in games really, but I always try to look out for you. I look forward to all of your documented blogs. @Starrydash - You know Starry, I remember our first interaction on that voice call and I did come for you pretty harshly, but I do think there were some red flags..however who cares at this point. Contrary to what you may believe, I actually do kind of like you and I did feel bad about backdooring you, but I think you even know it was a good move. And advice on fitting in, I think you need to just be more open about your life and who you are because we're a lot more than just online avatars. @Marwane - A true angel to me. Wow we went through so much on Tengaged. Friends...enemies...friends...mostly enemies. I was so glad to reconnect with you on this site because we really started as kovaze newbies together (RIP ZARNYX!). I would never have imagined how our relationship would have ended up. I think you are amazing I think you have a really good heart and all of our calls over the last 9 months have really meant a lot to me and helped me get to know you so much more. I will never forget our calls getting drunk together and just being absolute idiots, we will definitely need to turn it up again sometime soon because those were some of my favorite memories since joining the site. Love you forever. @Nebula - You're someone who I have always seen around on both tengaged and kovaze and I've always had a view of you that skews positive and when I see you in a game I do think you're someone I can work with, but at the same time I don't really know anything about you at all. Like legit at all. I don't even know your name! @Chase - I honestly can't remember if we got along on tengaged or not, probably not...maybe we were fighting for bamold's friendship that loser. However, I do remember in the later years playing fortnite with you both at times. On kovaze, I really like you besides that one time you slayed tf out of me in royale while I was at the movies, but other than that we've always had good relationships in games and when I won my speedy royale you were there cheering for me. @Lover - I just adore you. I feel like when you were first on TG we were always cool and I don't know what happened, but somewhere along the way we ended up not being cool. I was crazy and I was probably fighting people who you were friends with which led you to not liking me or some sort of variation of that scenario I would have to assume. On Kovaze, though, we have been cool. I remember playing that royale with you and I really tried to help you and I feel like since then we have been friends. Obviously we don't talk often or anything like that, but I do have love for you and consider you a friend even if we don't all the time. When I see you, I know it's a friendly face. @Davit - OMG we could not STAND each other on tengaged like we were always just going at it. I don't really know how we came about being friends on this site...I guess through playing races and just getting along I don't remember. Now I just love you though and I'm glad we built this friendship and I love whenever you pop back onto the site and play games. But hey now we're IG besties so we can keep up with one another even if we were to depart. Love my Davit always. You seem so much lighter now on this site I never see you in drama! @Christos - Ugh, this king. Just like my habibibi Marwane we had an up and down relationship on tengaged for SURE, but at least for me when I see any OG join kovaze I feel an immediate kinship. I think you're such a fun guy and whenever I see you in a game I know that we are good and you are a friendly face. I love following you on social media because you are living it up and I'm just watching in admiration. You're just such a fun presence and being around is just infectious positivity. I remember years ago getting drunk on a discord call for your birthday and maybe one day we'll be having a drink together. @xCharliex - I don't think we fucked with each other on tengaged because you were friends with my opps, but I've always enjoyed you on kovaze. I feel like when I joined your activity was going down, but whenever we were in games together we always bonded. I don't know too much about you on a personal level, but you've always been cool to me. @Jessiejedi - Kovaze's sweetheart <3 You always have a friend in me. You just bring positivity and happiness wherever you go. If you're in a game or on the blog's page I feel like you are the people's princess. The comp skills can definitely use some improvement LOL, but I feel like everyone just adores you and thart's not a trait that everyone has. @Robby202 - Now I could not stand you on tengaged I feel like we were always on each others necks coming for the other in games and I think with Kovaze we were just race partners early on when I joined and there's nothing that bonds someone like being paired with them in race. Now I have grown to really like you and consider you a friend, which is funny because I don't know if we have ever actually had a conversation outside of a game, but maybe we should one day because I really do like you! @Fire - Wow the first person to ask a question, I love that! I think firstly this site allowed me to build such thick skin from a young age. Obviously nowadays I'm a big personality and looked at as an asshole, but when I joined I was 12 years old trying to impress the older people on tengaged and you kinda get hazed. I think being on tengaged you have been called every name in the book and have had a lot of fucked up things happen to you, like I had people finding my mom on Facebook and messaging her over a tengaged game when I was like 16. I had someone call the police on me over a frookies. I think it just really made me stronger and made me stand up for myself, which I consider to be a good thing. I also think that it has taught me so much about people and especially learning more about people from other continents, in America we really only focus on ourselves so I think it's given me a good understanding of so many different walks of life. On the negative side, I think that it has made me untrusting of people. I think playing games for 15+ years based on voting people out or betraying people it really makes you skeptical of people in life. @Hwest14 - Firstly, Angels Like You is also my favorite so you have great taste, which is unsurprising to me because we always had similar music taste. Houston, I adore you truly I can think of so many calls we had in our lifetime whether it was talking about Big Brother or Survivor or P!nk or doing rankdowns or just playing frookies or just shooting the shit. I have always had such a fond view of you and even though I'm a fucking mental patient at times you still have never shown me anything but love in return and it does not go unnoticed and I will always have spot in my heart for you, such an angel. @Honey - My beauty I just remember our days in the OG of the OC and we were good and then somewhere along the line of tengaged we fell out and we did not like each other at all and our only mutual interest was Brandon. But since joining Kovaze I have seen such a completely different version of you and I hope you feel the same of me. You're very distant from any main sources of drama and really someone who I have only had positive interactions with. Love you and hope you're well. @Spartagow - I don't give a fuck what anyone says about you truly. I have always had nothing but amazing interactions with you and even though we don't talk about our personal lives a ton, you are one of the people on the site I do dm the most with. Even if it's just to fill a race or bitch about a partner I feel like we have the same senses of humor and I just genuinely like you and think we have a lot in common. I've been judged a lot for things on this site so nothing you can do would ever turn me against you. @Jadennator1 - Don't make me cry. It's an understatement to say that I fucking love you. I realize every single day that I love you more and more because I constantly find myself talking about you when you're not around and I think a true sign of friendship is genuinely praising someone when you're not even in their presence and not having to tell them. I fucking adore you truly. Writing this is almost sad because I can still picture a 15 year old Lemjam6 fighting with Jadennator1 over fucking something stupid and it's a true shame that we wasted so many years of our lives and I vow to never waste another one. The best part of joining this website for me is reconnecting with you truly I mean it 100%. I think you are such a good friend I think you are so funny and no matter wtf happens I'd do it all again to connect with you. I love you beyond words and I can't wait to have a shot with you one day in person because you are just one of a kind. Real friends are hard to come by.

YOU are my safe space @JTee

I had the time of my life racing with you @Alexa <3 finally getting this race win with you was something beautiful... despite any controversy we will always rise...my beautiful Alexa the second ever online person i met in real life...i was a chubby gay 22 year old or something and you took me to my first gay bar and now i'm a skinny bad bitch and it's all thanks to you

not because I want to host events but because I play a lot of games and other events coordinators swap their inactive partners when they get them and I think it's unfair that some people have the ability to do that while I can't so I think JADED FOR EVENTS POWERS (only so i can swap my inactive partners @sin) I get a lot of them!

when you are the moment