Colombia’s president is all about extolling Israel while his county is ravaged by an earthquake but because the department impacted is mostly black of course he won’t give a shit Latin American conservatives are just genuinely evil and I will not apologize

Being more silent and absent in conversations and gatherings so that way my friends won’t miss me when I’m gone

That I basically look like a chud since it will drive me insane otherwise and failing miserably I can understand why I've never really experienced love, romantically or otherwise, and I can't really fault anyone for that

More social on this site. Like how the fuck do you even talk to people on here? How are you guys today?

I was definitely picked on and bullied a lot more than I realized growing up On the other hand it was all very likely deserved so I can’t even fault anyone I just gotta deal with it I guess

Roommate thinks it’s a lone star Was probably on me for several days I was already not in a good place mentally but my odds of just ending it all have definitely gone up by like 50-100%

Maybe a bit more derealization and feeling like I'm a spectator in my own life will make things better

“I fucking hate my boy/girlfriend and want them dead but I still love them”

Just to enter a slut era

Because you’ll have only like one blank square on the board and you’ll somehow end up landing there more often than not

I guess we root for Spain now?

It’s smoky I can’t eat lettuce or fruit without contracting explosive diarrhea The Strait’s still closed But at least a few Fortune 500 CEOs can now feel comfortable saying slurs during their conference calls

The AI slop vibes of this site probably kill it more than anything else

Fuck Neymar

That Spain is the only real civilization left in Europe, but just barely

But I genuinely think my life is nearly over I have no career prospects, I have no chance of ever being in a relationship, I feel like my friends don’t tolerate me or are beginning to turn away from me, I offer nothing to anybody, I’m self-absorbed and cold, the world is generally becoming more hostile and less viable for human life, and I feel like I’ve done everything wrong in my life to be where I am. Not to mention I’ve had this empty feeling in my chest for a good week now, like this feeling of dread. Yet I don’t feel any urgency to fix anything because all of it feels so meaningless, like it’s too much to fix and it won’t work out in the end because nothing has ever worked out for me. All the while I can’t get the idea out of my mind that I genuinely should end it all because it’s making less and less sense that someone like me should want to live another year or two or whatever length. I don’t feel right. I never had, but it’s getting worse. I don’t have anybody and I don’t have the means to even come to my own defense, not even for a little bit anymore. Everything I’ve done in my life has always been in deference to others, because at least I can be useful and make things easy for others right? But now I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore or why I’m doing anything. I don’t know.

That my family's lack of full love or concern for me growing up, either that or the generally hostile and negative environment I grew up in, may have contributed to my general acceptance that others may not love or like me as much as they say they do and that any expression of it is either conditional, untenable, or not true to begin with But let's repress that emotion for now :)

Of people who I have not spoken to or seen in almost a decade basically telling me I'm rude and conceited Is this a sign?

I must ask: why?