Being more silent and absent in conversations and gatherings so that way my friends won’t miss me when I’m gone

That I basically look like a chud since it will drive me insane otherwise and failing miserably I can understand why I've never really experienced love, romantically or otherwise, and I can't really fault anyone for that

More social on this site. Like how the fuck do you even talk to people on here? How are you guys today?

I was definitely picked on and bullied a lot more than I realized growing up On the other hand it was all very likely deserved so I can’t even fault anyone I just gotta deal with it I guess

Roommate thinks it’s a lone star Was probably on me for several days I was already not in a good place mentally but my odds of just ending it all have definitely gone up by like 50-100%