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I Don’t Want to Sound Hyperbolic
But I genuinely think my life is nearly over
I have no career prospects, I have no chance of ever being in a relationship, I feel like my friends don’t tolerate me or are beginning to turn away from me, I offer nothing to anybody, I’m self-absorbed and cold, the world is generally becoming more hostile and less viable for human life, and I feel like I’ve done everything wrong in my life to be where I am. Not to mention I’ve had this empty feeling in my chest for a good week now, like this feeling of dread. Yet I don’t feel any urgency to fix anything because all of it feels so meaningless, like it’s too much to fix and it won’t work out in the end because nothing has ever worked out for me.
All the while I can’t get the idea out of my mind that I genuinely should end it all because it’s making less and less sense that someone like me should want to live another year or two or whatever length.
I don’t feel right. I never had, but it’s getting worse. I don’t have anybody and I don’t have the means to even come to my own defense, not even for a little bit anymore. Everything I’ve done in my life has always been in deference to others, because at least I can be useful and make things easy for others right? But now I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore or why I’m doing anything.
I don’t know.
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I used to feel like this for a long time, I believed only the worst things about myself and catastrophized everything. Once I had a lot of therapy and some meds, I genuinely have never felt better in my life. I don't know you or your story but I promise the right therapist can help you question these beliefs you have and potentially help you on a better path. Life has its ups and downs and it really will get better for you if you put in the effort <3 You're never alone!
That's extremely cruel and honest to read, but it's not true.. Most people reach the peak of their lives at an advanced age, and your life can end today and begin again tomorrow. While we are still alive, we all have a chance to shine and prove we are good at something, what lack is the right opportunity. Don't hesitate to message me if you need a private conversation.
Securing the things you’ve always dreamt of have no value if you don’t go through this phase. We all have periods of self doubt. Spin it into something productive. One brick at a time you’ll build your castle. Mental health, physical health, and emotional intelligence come with the trials, triumphs, and tribulations we go thru :)
And I don’t even want to suggest I’m a nice guy or a victim or whatever. I truly am not. I’ve pushed people away, pissed people off, contributed nothing positive to the lives of others, so really it’s all my fault I’m in this position.