when the same person who was telling u youll never be a girl at 14 years old on tengaged.com is also a proud kind "ally" to the trans women of *this* website? i feel i am caught between pride in the growth of a community and also the anger at a lack of justice or retribution for the abuse i undertook as a kid on this websites predecessor i dont know if its unfair of me. i want people to be better. so i should feel glad about it. but i feel sorry for the little Cassie who wanted nothing more than the approval of the adults of Tengaged and looked at her phone every 10 minutes in middle school and, almost everyday, saw some adult asking her about her genitalia, asking if her parents are pedophiles or calling her a genderfaker/shemale on the other hand, it isnt this websites responsibility to retroactively fix the childhood traumas of all of us kids who were on Tengaged when we never shouldve been allowed. i wonder if these thoughts are best left buried or if unearthing these feelings can provide healing for not just me but also the others. because i know well there are others. late night thoughts. time is loops?