having 2 boyfriends
Dakota
is a very odd thing for me bc I don't consider myself polyamorous? or at least havent until very recently, I'm still pretty uncomfortable with the term? Idk how else to describe it though. But the main thing I struggle with is like language like I can't tell one 'youre the best boyfriend ever' because then I feel like I'm implying the other one isn't if they can both hear me and they both are LMAOOOO so I'm like hey what the fuck do I say. Like there are so many little affectionate things I just think to say that im like oh that might make the other one feel like shit if he heard it even tho I do NOT mean it in that way.