My reconversión sexual

My reconversion: As many know, I used to have sadistic desires toward women, which were never acted upon because they were immoral. Those desires stemmed from a difficult childhood in which I came to understand that pain was the only way to experience pleasure. Therefore, being heterosexual and attracted to women, it was, in my imagination, the only way for me to get aroused. Little by little, through treatment, I gradually began experiencing how to give and receive pleasure—something that was quite difficult for me, but I achieved it. A normal sexuality focused on giving and receiving pleasure rather than pain. It is wonderful, and I am very happy; it took a lot of effort to get here. Now I am able to get married and have children; however, first I want to enjoy pleasure with many women."