Just Breath Tyler!

(CONTAINS DOMESTIC VIOLENCE and DRUG USE). PLEASE DONT READ IF THAT EFFECTS YOU IN ANY WAY.) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 12 years ago, my Ex-Boyfriend hit me in the back of the head with a hammer, i was highly addicted to pills and other drugs. i would steal from my work and come home to someone who didn't/ never loved me. after i left him and he got out of jail the next night I got depressed. i stopped paying orgs i stopped playing tengaged. i stopped trusting people. 3 years ago, i was with a man who hit me and got me back into certain drugs. i checked myself into the phycward. then he broke up with me while i was in there. i am on meds for my Depression, Anxiety, and ptsd. i became a casino card dealer and i fell in love with it and i met some really awesome people. I thought I got stronger.... about 2 weeks ago i was on reddit and i so a proflie Kovaze talking about the website and i thought maybe since I'm older and medicated it should be easy for me to put up a wall and vote people out but thinking like that made me very sad so I decide id never lie or backstab anyone and there is always a clean way to win. i get lying is part of the game, and i try not to take it personal but then if i know all that why do i still cry and feel worthless? what is wrong with me? i just want to be strong! but i just keep let people hurt me