Still talking to that twink

Who I was trashing on the blogs page a few weeks ago 😭….idk yall. Quick heartfelt “rant” This guy is very sweet. Texts me everyday pretty quickly, is always down for plans, he spoiled me a lot on our first date too and paid for EVERYTHING at the movies. On paper, it’s great. We’re supposed to be going on another date tomorrow, this time I did the organizing and will spoil him in return :-) I just can’t help but feel like he’s a lot less emotional than I am. I’m extremely needy, especially as someone who doesn’t really have many irl friends. Like I kinda want my partner to be close to if not my everything. He’s so different from me in some ways. Travels all the time, has a ton of friends he’s always doing stuff with, makes way more money than me. I don’t see why he would need me as much as I would need him. It’s like…his life already seems so full, mines really very empty. And I don’t mean that in a depressing way, well maybe a little. But mostly I just mean I don’t really have a lot going on at the moment. I go to work, I workout, I come home and watch tv and play kovaze. I don’t know if what I’m feeling is inferiority or if I’m just wondering if I will be too much for him to handle, but something just doesn’t feel right. I still think I’ll go with the flow for now, but my gut is kinda telling me this is a right person wrong time type situation. I still have so much developing to do in my career, in loving the way I look, in building a fulfilling personal life. I won’t be where I want to be for another 5 years AT LEAST. This guy is miles ahead of me in multiple departments. How can I fit into all the awesomeness he has going for himself right now? I just don’t know that I can. Anyways just needed to get this off my chest and get vulnerable for a sec :-) I really do like him, but I think he’s just in a different phase of life than I’m in right now (even though we’re the same age lolol). He’s very busy and I’m very….not. I’m not tryna be that girl who is trying to scavenge for a time slot 😭 that doesn’t seem fair. Advice is very welcomed and appreciated! And THANKS TO ANYONE WHO READ ALL THIS LOL