i think its time

for me to take a step away. Its too bad I am in an outcasted but im spiraling and the games are no longer the distraction from my health realities they once were. I shouldn't be having s**cidal thouhts over a puzzler arena but here we are. It's just a game but I am not in a good place so I can't cope like a normal person would. maybe i'll sleep it off and delete this tomorrow but yeah retirement for me.