vent incoming omgg

so i rlly just like need to drop my thoughts somewhere and what better place to do so than the kovaze blogs page.. LMFAOOO okay so like i have fully convinced myself that im never gonna find love and that im dying alone cause like as much as i want to i rlly just cant cause i either RUNNN FAR AWAYY when shit gets close n real or i just attract fucking dumbos n let myself get manipulated af like an idiot n the bad thing is im aware when it happens but i just let it happen cause i’m lwk so desperate for love its embarrassing af but idk i just, dont see it happening. n trust im good on my own but i’m just not rlly happy with where im at in life?? i feel like im letting the past affect me way too much and its witholding me from experiencing how great the present can be, being self aware but not knowing how to fix it is so fucking frustrating!!!! like i’m funny, i’m kind n good company and i’m not like super ugly so ijdk whyyy i cant FIND A MAN its so bad and like yah im good on my own but idk i’m just so ready to share my life w someone n built a future w someone and ugh yes ig thats kinda it this is so so so embarrassing but idk i just wanted to vent😍😍