I've had enough of this place, and it's become quite clear that this place is invested with MAGA people. And I don't care if you don't live in the United States; MAGA is also a 'state-of-mind', and many people outside of the USA inhabit this horrible state-of-mind, so they count as MAGA. Seriously, my blogs are being nothing but negged, time and time and time again, no matter what I say. This is targeted harassment, and it's become very obvious this place has a lot of MAGA creeps. Here's why: 1. MAGA people love to bully, harass, insult, and attack others who they deem are far more intelligent than them, point out their bullshit, or just seem like 'easy targets'. This is exactly who I'm treated. I speak out against the behavior and awful things I see, and while MAYBE I get one or two people to see my point, I still get overwhelmingly ganged up on. 2. MAGA people love to move in herds and have a toxic 'herd mentality'. This includes premades in games. These people listen to their own echo chambers and love to kiss their own asses, and will team up and cheat to get themselves 'victories', and team up to harass and bully other people. 3. MAGA people have a warped mentality of what is okay and what isn't. They blindly accept bullying, nasty behavior as being 'okay', justifying their actions as 'noble' and 'necessary', when in reality they're laughingstocks that anyone with an ounce of morality and respect for themselves would be able to see through in a heartbeat. 4. MAGA people work to cancel, blacklist, and get rid of things they hate, such as myself. Because they can't stand that I refuse to be a part of their hive mentality and their toxicity, they instead try to get rid of me and keep kicking me until I'm down...and then even FURTHER down. I can go on and on, but it's become very obvious this site is riddled with these toxic parasites that just leech off those who aren't a part of their hive to keep their ugliness (inside and out) strong. This place is simply not worth the stress that comes with being abused, tortured, and bullied day after day. I know a lot of idiots are going to be screeching about how I'M the problem, making blog posts or comments yet again pointing out how 'wrong' I am and laughing about it...which is just more MAGA behavior; ganging up and mocking someone for wrong reasons. So enjoy, you narcissistic, ugly, hateful, trash human beings. I'm done with this place. Not like it ever gets more than 200 people online at a time, and naturally when 90% of those people are just evil MAGA creeps, it really isn't worth it to be here. To those of you who were actually NOT a part of this rotten hive, thanks for at least making a few seconds of my time here not suck quite so badly. To everyone else...I pity you. You all should be ashamed of your gross behavior. I'm guessing many of you are in you teens and young 20s, so hopefully you grow out of your disgusting mindsets...but I don't have high hopes. I already know that I'm a loser; I've owned it for a long time. What are all your excuses? You all think you're hot shit by treating others like garbage, and cowering behind 'playing games' and your own giant egos and fat asses to defend your actions? Just shameful. Sad, sad, sad. Good luck with your site, Sin, but I simply can't be a part of this toxicity any longer. I've suffered from severe depression and suicidal tendencies for almost 20 years now, and I'm dealing with enough misery in my life apart from that that I don't need this bullshit. Stuff like this should help alleviate stress, not increase it. But even when I tried to take the 'advice' of others to 'be friendlier' and 'have more fun', that doesn't help at all; I wasn't allowed to be nice or have more fun. I was just further kicked at and abused, like a chained-up dog on a leash. I have to deal with pets with health issues, a legal case where I might be kicked out of my home, health concerns, and much more. Again, I don't need this. If anybody with a genuine heart wants to see me, feel free to add me on Discord...my username is the same as it is here. But, otherwise, I wish I could say it's been fun. It hasn't. This site has a lot of growing up to do...but not as much as most of its players do. Goodbye.

The site is becoming a lot like Big Brother 22...just premades running every single game. Hysteria, Island, you name it. You go into a game, it's silent as hell because half the players are secretly chatting on Discord, and just winning all the comps and picking everyone off not in their big, premade alliance one by one. Sorry, but this isn't fun. And laughing and saying "lol it's just a game who cares" is hypocritical, because if it's "just a game"...why do you need to go through such lengths to ensure you or your lackeys win every single time? And saying "lol just gid gud so you can beat the premade then" is counterproductive, since you make it sound SO easy to beat people who get insane scores that most normal people simply cannot get AND have enough numbers on their side to ensure that even IF a miracle does happen you can't even make a dent in their armor. It's pointless. It's no wonder why games like Race tend to not fill up that much anymore; you can't really do premades with a game where there's no voting involved and relies on randomized pairs...so naturally people don't want to actually have to WORK for their wins. Why work hard for victories when you can just get them for free by stacking the deck, right? Wow, SO fun! Hey, you know that new video game you bought? Just go ahead and plug in Cheat Engine or Action Replay Codes or whatever else and make it so you're not even playing anymore; just cut straight to the end where it says "You win!" and be happy! I know I'm just gonna be made fun of, as per usual, and this blog is gonna get negged by salty losers, but I don't care. It's infuriating going into games, on my own, to actually try and...you know, PLAY the game...but there's ALWAYS a premade there that just runs things and makes it not at all fun. I hate it. And I know many others on here feel the same way I do. Just know this: if you need to stack the deck to get your wins, you aren't really 'winning' at all. You're a loser with a sticker on your forehead with 'I'm Winner!' written on it.

[DISCLAIMER: THE FOLLOWING IS THE THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS OF A SINGLE PERSON, SOLELY ON WHAT WAS OBSERVED ON A REALITY TV SHOW. THEY DO NOT REFLECT THOUGHTS ON EVENTS OUTSIDE OF THE GAME. DON'T HARASS, BELITTLE, OR BULLY DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE HAVING DIFFERENT THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS THAN YOU. THIS IS SIMPLY FOR FUN AND NOTHING MORE.] Well, after going over what Big Brother 14 and Big Brother 15 really meant to me, now is for the first TRUE season that I actually watched in its entirety. And...this one is tricky, because my thoughts at the time are a bit different than how I feel now. At the time, my mother really enjoyed the season, since she really liked Derrick because "he's such a good guy cop and he's so likable" or whatever. I was invested all the way until the final 5, when my favorite player of the season, Frankie, tragically got eliminated after stupidly pushing that damn button. At that point, I really couldn't care less who won with such an unlikable final 4, but I did keep watching because my mother supported Derrick so much, and I did wish to see the Team America stuff come to its conclusion. The Team America twist I initially liked, since Joey, Donny, and Frankie were EASILY three standout favorites very quickly. But when Derrick was added in instead of Joey...it kinda lost a lot of the luster. I was never high on Derrick myself; I mostly just supported him because my mother did, but even back then I couldn't stand how boring he was and how he was making the season a lot less fun. Because, again, there IS a lot to like about this cast. Joey was instantly a favorite, so seeing her tragically go out first was horrible. Devin was fun while he lasted. Jocasta was honestly a very likable character. Zach was amazing. Donny is, of course, fantastic. Nicole was fine (at least for her first time). I didn't understand the hatred Christine got at all; I honestly liked her quite a bit. Frankie is one of my favorite players of all-time. Like...other than the final 2 themselves, I don't mind really anybody on this cast. But, alas, that's the issue; when the final 2 is so bad, it taints the season as a whole. At least for me. Every single vote being unanimous, other than three of them, was definitely boring. Again, Derrick did everything in his power to make the season boring...which worked for him, and he's obviously one of the most 'celebrated' winners in terms of gameplay, but...I don't give a shit about that. I don't care how 'great' someone played; all I care about is how entertaining or likable they were. Derrick was neither of those things. The Battle Of The Block twist...hate me all you want, but just like the Redemption Island twist in Survivor...I really liked it. It made the nominations and challenges far more interesting and unique, which I'm all for. Just doing the boring "one HOH, two nominations, veto competition, two nominations after veto ceremony, simple eviction" process is just...dull. It worked for a while, but everything needs a tune-up after a while; so many people bash Survivor for also doing new stuff over the years, when again things get stale if you just keep it the exact same forever and ever. So, I loved the Battle Of The Block twist. Ultimately, Derrick and Cody are easily my least favorite players of the season, and Derrick is a horrible winner (for ME). Other players that would be on my 'meh' list would include Paola, Brittany, Amber, Hayden, Caleb, and Victoria. The three pre-jury girls just didn't stand out to me at all, Hayden was just Nicole's love interest but pointless otherwise, Caleb was just kinda Derrick's lackey and had no substance until he got to play Survivor, and Victoria is just known for being a laughable goat rather than anything exciting. Frankie, Donny, Zach, Jocasta, and Joey would be my top 5. Devin, Nicole, and Christine are in the 'alright' category for me.

[DISCLAIMER: THE FOLLOWING IS THE THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS OF A SINGLE PERSON, SOLELY ON WHAT WAS OBSERVED ON A REALITY TV SHOW. THEY DO NOT REFLECT THOUGHTS ON EVENTS OUTSIDE OF THE GAME. DON'T HARASS, BELITTLE, OR BULLY DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE HAVING DIFFERENT THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS THAN YOU. THIS IS SIMPLY FOR FUN AND NOTHING MORE.] So, yeah, after my intro into Big Brother with 14...as it turns out, I didn't end up really doing much with 15. So when it premiered, I didn't end up really watching it. Instead, I just kinda listened to updates about it on Tengaged, and my opinions pretty much formed from all that alone. And, well...it's kinda obvious what the proper response to the season is: Elissa and Helen are the only good ones, while everyone else is trash. The season is hated and from everything I heard, I have no reason to doubt it. When I DID watch a few episodes, since I was really getting hooked on hearing the underdog story of Elissa and the fact she was a famous former Big Brother player's sister, it really didn't do anything to make me enjoy it at all. I remember REALLY hating GinaMarie, Andy, Spencer, McCrae, Amanda...again, ALL these players just sucked! Other than Elissa (I think Helen was already out by the time I started watching a few episodes). Apparently the Howard dude and the Candice girl weren't bad, but I never saw them, so I can't really speak on it. But, yeah, after hearing everything that went on with this season, I'm GLAD I didn't watch. I would've been so infuriated and disgusted, and seeing Elissa not win in the end would've just killed any desire I had to watch Big Brother going forward. From what I saw of him, Andy was an insufferable, slimy, awful creep, so seeing him win was revolting. But, when the counter was GinaMarie...it was a lose-lose vote. I'm shocked Elissa hasn't been asked to return at this point, or even Helen. It really was a HUGE thing at that point in time; I remember Tengaged just nonstop chatting about the season and the vileness that was going on, and what a goddess Elissa was (and Helen). Just READING about it was more than enough for me, thank you. It wouldn't be until Big Brother 16 that I would finally, FINALLY, watch a season from the very start and finish it all the way to the very end. But I'll cover that next time.

[DISCLAIMER: THE FOLLOWING IS THE THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS OF A SINGLE PERSON, SOLELY ON WHAT WAS OBSERVED ON A REALITY TV SHOW. THEY DO NOT REFLECT THOUGHTS ON EVENTS OUTSIDE OF THE GAME. DON'T HARASS, BELITTLE, OR BULLY DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE HAVING DIFFERENT THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS THAN YOU. THIS IS SIMPLY FOR FUN AND NOTHING MORE.] So since people love to hate me and everything I say, I figured I may as well just keep that going by sharing thoughts on Big Brother seasons, starting off with the very first one I ever actually saw. Big Brother 14 was the first season I saw...well, SOMEWHAT saw. I only started to watch episodes once in a while, whenever I found them to be on. I don't fully know WHY I began to be intrigued by the show at the age of 21, but I just suddenly started to be intrigued. I remember thinking: "Why is there some weirdo named Boogie? Why is there some creep walking around, yelling at people, in a carrot costume? Why is there a little kid in the house? What in the world is this show?" I don't FULLY know the actual week I began watching; all I know is I think I remember Boogie being evicted, and Frank in his carrot costume. Whenever that was. I had absolutely no idea who Jodi, Kara, JoJo, Janelle, or Wil were. I was disappointed when I heard who Willie was and that he had gotten expelled, since I was a huge Russell Hantz fan, and seeing his brother would've been awesome. Boogie seemed relatively entertaining, but again I really only got to see his eviction, so it was a very small sample size. Ashley left no impression on me, and to this day I don't even remember her. Britney also left no impression on me, and AGAIN to this day I don't get what the big deal with her is; she really doesn't stand out that much at all. Oh, and I had no clue about the coaches twist, so to me all of these players were new. Anyway, I was kinda mixed on Frank; I could definitely see him as entertaining, but I also found him to be kinda annoying. Joe was instantly one of my three favorites as I began to watch (alongside Ian and Jenn). I just loved this guy's enthusiasm and passion, and he just seemed really likable; I was incredibly sad when he got evicted. Jenn also seemed pretty cool; not as fun as Joe, but still likable enough. I really couldn't stand Shane, and again I had no clue how the game really worked, so I thought he was going to end up being the winner...but then he thankfully got evicted and I was thrilled. I remember watching the final 3 and HEAVILY rooting for Ian, since he was the only likable one left over the villainous Dan and the pointless Danielle. I genuinely thought Ian was just a kid, since he just LOOKED so damn young! So seeing him actually win the last HOH made me elated. I didn't know who Dan was, so I didn't see the big deal about him; even that whole 'Dan's Funeral' thing that I did watch made no sense to me. I just kept asking myself: "What the HELL is this dumbass doing?" Of course nowadays it's common knowledge what he was doing, but at that point I was stupid and clueless. Seeing Ian win really made me overjoyed; I genuinely thought he was gonna lose, since there just seemed to be a lot more...well, 'sizzle' around this Dan character than Ian...but I'm glad the jury voted to award Ian! Frank winning fan favorite was annoying; I didn't understand why Joe didn't win it, or even Jenn or Ian. Anyway, at that point, I honestly was kinda intrigued by the show. From the parts I did watch, it was alright. Kinda silly, and rather confusing, but overall a decent way to waste time. I didn't really have any interest in watching the 13 seasons that came before (or going back to watching the first half of THIS season), but I might keep an eye out for the next season when it happened.

I'm looking for more loyal, honest allies that would be willing to actually work with me in games we wind up in going forward. And by loyal, I mean for the ENTIRE game...or at least up until a point where it's literally impossible to do anything else. I want to find true loyal, kindhearted people who are open and honest about their feelings and will always stay true to their word and don't just enjoy backstabbing people for the fun of it! Your king is looking for more allies. I hope to find some!

So I was trying to talk to NotNicky333 in DMs to calmly ask them what their problem with me is, and try to talk things out, since they keep taking nasty shots at me nonstop. What followed was: --- On 8th of August 2026, NotNicky333 wrote: YOUR LIFE SUCKS BECAUSE YOURE SO DAMN NEGATIVE ALL THE TIME. WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO BE AROUND SOMEONE WHO COMPLAINS AND WRITES PARAGRAPHS OVER GAMES THAT ARE NOT THAT SERIOUS. YOURE A LOSER!!!!!!!!!! --- On 8th of August 2026, Tailslover13 wrote: You're 23-years-old and have a lot of life ahead of you, dude. I've lived quite a bit longer than you and have been through a lot more. It's not a self-made prophecy whatsoever. Try living my life and say that. --- On 8th of August 2026, NotNicky333 wrote: Yeah you clearly don’t get it. You’re miserable because it’s a self made prophecy. Weirdo. --- On 8th of August 2026, Tailslover13 wrote: It feels like your feelings toward me branch out further than just this site, though. You seem to have resentment towards me from before I even got here. Also, why does nobody think that I TRY to be nice? I'm genuinely nothing but nice to people. I don't push anyone away, I'm open to everyone...and they always, ALWAYS stab me in the back, laugh about it, and don't even care about how I feel. It's hard to just keep 'being nice' when your kindness is taken for granted and used as a tool to just further everyone else's agendas. So, like...I'm supposed to just enjoy being nonstop backstabbed and never even have a chance to win any games because I'm supposed to always be nice to everyone and never hold grudges or resent people for their actions? So I'm just always meant to lose then. How is that 'fun' at all? Sure, winning isn't ALWAYS in the cards...duh. But, if it's NEVER in the cards...you really expect some people to be okay with that? --- On 8th of August 2026, NotNicky333 wrote: just be nice to people and don’t write essays about people lying to you in a game that revolves around lying. like i promise you will have a better experience on this website if you treated others how you wanted to be treated and if you just gave people a chance. you’re going to be backstabbed in games that’s how bb/survivor work but the people who have fun are the ones who are able to laugh about it and move on. --- On 8th of August 2026, Tailslover13 wrote: Can we please end this nonsense? You don't need to be constantly antagonizing me. Can we please just...maybe discuss what you have against me so we can maybe talk through it or something? Please? And at that point he blocked me. So...yeah, please tell me what I did wrong. I was trying to be rational, respectful, calm, and talk about my point of views. But it devolved into HIM ranting, screaming, insulting me, and him blocking ME. So...yeah, it's hard to try and find common ground with people when THIS is how I get treated.

Yet again, I get lied to by the ENTIRE cast in an Island game, and get voted out unanimously at the merge. Thankfully I still made jury, so I can happily be a bigger juror (which I hold with proud esteem), but I do wonder what the point is. People whispering me to vote for a certain person or whatever, when they KNOW I'm going out...like, do they not think I can't see the votes? Do they think they're gonna get my jury vote by just outright lying to my face while voting me out? I really do question the intelligence of some people. Also, yeah, it's kinda a compliment. Taking shots at ME, of all people, over and over? The people that get voted are the ones players fear most. Otherwise, if you AREN'T scared of someone...you just leave them alone and take them out down the line when they're sitting ducks. So, by always being targeted as quickly as possible, I take it as a compliment. So many are fearful of me, which I can at least appreciate and respect. I DON'T respect lying to my face and pretending to be my friend while stabbing me in the back, but naturally we can't expect PERFECT behavior and gameplay from people. Oh, and everyone that negs my blog just proves my point that people just love to hate on me and it feels heavily targeted. But, people just love to hate nowadays. Hate, hate, hate, hate, hate. I'm used to it. Been hated since the second I was born, will be hated the second I die...and forever after that, too. So be it. Keep hating. I'm not going anywhere until God decides it's my time. So I'm glad my existence offends you all!

I don't know why I'm here. Nobody wants me here. All anybody does is make fun of the things I say, mock the fact I have an enemies list, betray and lie to me in every single game I play, talk shit about me like I don't matter...why am I even here? Why does it even matter? I'm feeling just as bad as I did when I was on Tengaged. I seriously wish that I could just...never mind. I should just make a bunch of multi-accounts and play games only with myself. Sin and her moderation team would ban them all in no time, but at least for a short period of time...I'd at least feel happy. Because right now, I'm just a crying mess. It feels like the days when I was in school, when I was beaten up, bullied, teased, and isolated. It's funny how no matter how old you get...some things just stay the same. Every time I go to sleep, I always do silently wish that I would never wake up. I'd love to just dream forever...because at least in my dreams I can't be hurt, and I'd finally be free of pain. But, alas, I'm still here. Sad.

https://kovaze.com/island/22187 There's an obvious premade here with the pink background fools of JDaddy, Melodrama, Aligxo, Luxray, and Joeburrow. Instead of the other five banding together and trying to tie it up 5-5, what do they do? Just bow to the whims of the premade and vote me out...someone who NEVER wins and was the least threatening, too. Such idiots, and of course liars. Oh, but it's "just a game", so therefore I'm not allowed to be mad! Well, I am anyway, so fuck this entire final 9...other than Charlitos. He's nice.

But, alas, that's been the story of my life. My entire family...my school years...online life...it just never ends. Everywhere I go, I feel like the only smart person in the room, while everyone else acts like embarrassing morons and laugh at me like I'M the problem. Maybe it would be easier to just remove my brain and join the mindless zombies around me...it would sure make things a lot less painful and a lot easier. But...nah, that just isn't my style. I'll endure the pain and misery of having to put up with the bullshit if it means I keep my sanity and clarity. Until the day I die (which I continue to wish was sooner rather than later), I'm always gonna just be holding my head in my hands while having to listen to and put up with the idiocy always surrounding me everywhere I go. But, just like Statler and Waldorf from The Muppets, I can just laugh at the stupidity; laughter is the best medicine to most everything, after all. They should make a TV show about my life. Someone trying to survive life...while having to put up with all the stupid people just making their life worse and embarrassing themselves in the process. I'm sure these types of show have already been done before, but...hey, they're likely always done because they're so relatable! Cliches exist for a reason, you know. So, with that...I now await the incoming onslaught of down-votes, the obnoxious blogs that get posted to 'counter' what I've just said and pretty much prove my point, and the eye-rolling comment responses that I will promptly remove from this blog post. If I drank tea, I would be sipping a cup of it while dealing with it all, too.

Fire I don't forget. I really thought you were a friend to me. A loyal ally and a genuine, kind person. But then you just started to stab me in the back in games...again, and again. And you laughed it off and shrugged and acted like it was no big deal. You basically treated my kindness like dirt. You used me for numbers in games, and then in other games when you had 'better' numbers...you disposed of me. Like I was nothing. And you think I'm just gonna forgive that and not care? Sure, a lot of people on this stupid site WON'T care, since they just don't have a lot of emotional depth to their characters...but I'm not one of them. I DO care, and I DO get hurt. Easily. You think YOU'RE sensitive? Please. Try being a suicidal mess like me. So, yes, I hold grudges. I'm easy to forgive and my door is always open, but until then...I don't let things go. Because I've been a goddamn doormat my entire life. I'm ALWAYS being used, and abused, and treated like shit. Well, I don't put up with it anymore. If people act 'nice' to me, but then are quick to go back on it when the need arises...they're gonna get my wrath. Point, blank, period. And, yes, you're one of the (many) people who have used me and shrugged it off like my feelings didn't even matter, and I don't appreciate it. So me giving minor little comments in the silly poll box? Sorry, but I feel like it's more than fair. They're MY feelings, and I'm allowed to feel, and express, how I want. I don't like being treated badly.

Well, to put it more bluntly, I hate all of humanity. Other than my mother, and animals (non-human animals). Otherwise, yeah, I hate everybody with a strong passion. And don't give me any of that "That much hatred isn't good for you" bullshit. Humans are simply horrible creatures and should've never been created, since they're all just full of evil. Yes, that also includes me...but at least I can own up to the fact I'm a pathetic, embarrassing, laughable excuse for a human being that never should've been born and I'm a waste of oxygen. I can admit it and I own it. So I can say and feel whatever the hell I want. All human beings are nothing but self-interested, egomaniacal, selfish, despicable, embarrassing, ugly, pathetic pieces of trash. It's like God was playing a game of The Sims when making humanity, just left the game on autopilot for a while, then Satan took over and had his own 'fun' with it. And thus humanity is how it is today. I hate it all. And by all means say some hateful shit on my blog. I can't wait to block you and remove your stupid comment so I don't have to see it.

And thus our cast of second chancers got to play for their second time. Some made the most of it...while a lot simply did not. As expected. Overall, the season was fine. We hilariously got a finale with six heroes (at least by my Edgic-recording opinions), and while the winner wasn't the BEST possible one, they seem like a nice person and I'm sure they'll be happy (if they bother to see this). As always, thank you to my 20 chosen players: AngieKStan AntonB @Bomberv BradT50 @Charlitos cullenistehbest IceBeast mattychamps Miami @MrsChloeKayCecci Nettles Raai Ralts023 Runaways Sophie Space starrydash Thiii Thumper91 Zofry EPISODE 1 - IceBeast and starrydash both find idol clues, and both ultimately find their respective idols in the first immunity challenge. Psychopath (and fan favorite) AngieKStan picks right up where they left off last time, proceeding to start bullying Thiii. Nettles, despite bonding with mattychamps and not doing anything bad, is deemed a challenge liability by Ralts023, so they take the easy way out at their first vote by ultimately sending Nettles packing in a 5-4-1 vote over BradT50 and Raai. EPISODE 2 - Despite getting their way at tribal, and winning the next challenge, Ralts023 has a meltdown anyway! This behavior disgusts Miami, prompting them to leave their alliance with Ralts023 and starrydash, and makes a new one with @Bomberv and mattychamps. Ever the drama queen, AngieKStan has TWO meltdowns in the span of a few hours when their tribe loses immunity, but since nobody takes them seriously, the vote comes down to Space and Sophie. Despite an initial 4-4-1-1 tie, Space ultimately gets booted on the revote 5-3. EPISODE 3 - After swapping the two tribes into three, Thiii finds an idol clue, and then retrieves the idol at the immunity challenge. @MrsChloeKayCecci unleashes a meltdown so epic it scares cullenistehbest to leave their alliance with them. Sadly, mattychamps flops on their second chance, getting sent packing at tribal in a 3-1-1-1 vote. EPISODE 4 - Despite winning immunity, AngieKStan simply cannot go a day without bullying someone, so this time picks a fight with the distraught Raai for (as always) no reason at all. Despite being in the majority on their new tribe, @Bomberv fears they're going to be blindsided, resulting in a major meltdown of their own. And their worries prove to be true, as yet again @Bomberv flops on Survivor, getting booted out in a 3-2 vote. EPISODE 5 - Miami goes on the offensive; after having to deal with AngieKStan and their annoying behavior, they bond with both Thiii and starrydash, before ultimately forming an alliance with the latter and Raai. AntonB proceeds to annoy cullenistehbest and makes them bizarrely leave their alliance, but it proves to be meaningless as the legendary Sophie follows up her amazing TKS Legends performance with a poor showing here, being sent out 4-1-1. EPISODE 6 - For some reason, winning immunity challenges brings out the worst in people. After getting 1st place, @MrsChloeKayCecci is so upset that they very nearly decide to quit the game, but realizing their popularity and adoration would take a hit if they did, they decide to stick it out. Not to be outdone, cullenistehbest also has a meltdown, all the while AntonB and BradT50 bond over their tribemates' embarrassing behavior. Realizing they're the target, Thiii successfully plays their idol on themselves, negating 3 votes that would've sent them home. However, despite putting their vote on the powerful Miami in the hopes of getting them out, Miami threw a vote onto Raai, resulting in a depressing end to their game in a 2-1 vote following the negated votes. EPISODE 7 - Swapping the tribes one more time before the merge, Zofry melts down over fear of going out right before jury, leading to Thiii to have a waste a lot of energy calming them down. Despite his paranoia, their tribe ultimately decides to finally send AngieKStan out before they can carry their bullying ways into the merge, finally sending the psycho out in a 5-2 vote. EPISODE 8 - With the original numbers at 7-6, it's anyone's game. AntonB wins the first immunity challenge. BradT50 gets to work with his social game, trying to woo both Thiii and Runaways with how awesome he is. cullenistehbest arrogantly antagonizes Zofry and lets them know they're going home. Despite their attempts to send out cullenistehbest for their behavior, a split vote between Zofry and Ralts023 ultimately sends Zofry out of the game and makes them the first member of the jury in a close 5-4-4 vote. EPISODE 9 - @MrsChloeKayCecci wins immunity, immediately wowing Miami in the process and causing them to woo @MrsChloeKayCecci out of their own alliance to form a new duo with them instead. A stunning 4-4-4 vote at tribal leads to a three-way revote between Thumper91, AntonB, and cullenistehbest. With Zofry laughing on the jury, cullenistehbest ultimately gets their comeuppance, being eliminated on the revote 4-3-2. EPISODE 10 - The lovable @Charlitos wins immunity, but IceBeast finds a vote steal at the challenge as a consolation prize. Fearing their friend Runaways was in danger, IceBeast then uses their idol on them at tribal council. Proving their instincts were correct, 4 votes against Runaways are negated. Instead, 3 votes are sent the way of Thumper91 and 4 to AntonB, knocking the latter out of the game as the third juror. EPISODE 11 - Miami wins immunity, while IceBeast and Runaways bond over what happened at last tribal. Realizing @Charlitos was far too likable to keep around any longer, the tribe ultimately has to vote them out, despite Miami and Thumper91 both refusing to do so and throwing their votes onto others instead. @Charlitos is still voted out 4-3-2-1. EPISODE 12 - @MrsChloeKayCecci continues to reclaim the greatness they had in their last season, getting another immunity win, as Miami finds a clue to an idol. Unable to find the idol, Miami fears their may be in danger, but starrydash saves them with their own idol at tribal, yet again negating 4 votes cast for them. Runaways catches two, but it's ultimately BradT50 that takes the fall in a narrow 3-2 vote after the idol play. EPISODE 13 - Ralts023 and Thumper91 both win individual immunity for themselves. Runaways finds the idol instead of Miami, and Thumper91 joins their alliance with IceBeast. Realizing this was finally the time to take the shot at the powerhouse that is @MrsChloeKayCecci, the tribe turns on the legend, blindsiding them and sending them to the jury in a 5-2-1 vote. EPISODE 14 - Thumper91 finds the second merge idol, now giving the alliance of them, IceBeast, and Runaways two idols and a vote steal combined. Fearing their numbers are dwindling, Miami gets a clutch immunity win to save themselves. With Miami immune, the tribe ultimately took out one of their allies instead, sending Ralts023 to the jury in a 4-2-1 vote. FINALE - In the finale, Miami desperately needs immunity to stay alive, but Thumper91 steals it from him instead. Playing for their live, Miami manages to sway Thiii into joining their duo with starrydash, hoping to tie up the vote 3-3 at tribal. IceBeast, however, figures this out, and finally uses their vote steal on Thiii, being able to vote twice. Thanks to this, a disheartened Miami is finally voted out 4-2, ultimately outplayed by IceBeast. After Thumper91 wins immunity again, starrydash figures they're following Miami out the door. Runaways finally plays their idol on themselves, while Thumper91 plays theirs on IceBeast. None of it matters as it leads to a 2-2 vote between starrydash and Thiii. Angered by Thiii trying to tie up the last vote with Miami, Thiii is ultimately punished for the betrayal, sparring starrydash and sending Thiii to the jury on the revote. Proving what they did was a costly error, starrydash ultimately wins final immunity, forcing the trio of IceBeast, Thumper91, and Runaways to turn on each other. Ultimately, best buddies IceBeast and Runaways make a final 3 deal with starrydash, which they accept, ultimately leading to the disappointed Thumper91 going out in 4th in a 3-1 vote. At final tribal council, Runaways is criticized for riding coattails and not playing with any agency in the game, despite being a likable enough underdog. starrydash is appreciated for being the lone underdog standing from their starting tribe, but ultimately cannot name any big moves they did to stand out or boost their game. IceBeast is praised for never having won an immunity, yet only getting 1 vote all game long, and always having their pulse on the tribe and knowing where everyone stood. Their overall quality of gameplay leads to IceBeast being crowned the winner of TKS Second Chance, 6-2-2 over Runaways and starrydash. Raai then wins fan favorite following their depressing vote-out pre-merge. SEASON LINK: https://brantsteele.com/survivor/31/r.php?c=biDfNqmy

I enjoy returnee seasons, so it's time for another one. As a recap, here are the first five seasons and their winners: Season 1 (Heroes Paradise) - Sin Season 2 (Underworld Of Villains) - Dreamfyre Season 3 (Heroes Vs. Villains) - GuiltyAsSin Season 4 (Legends) - CarltonRS Season 5 (David Vs. Goliath) - Tailslover13 So, for Second Chances, everyone from the first five seasons who only played once and haven't won will be in consideration. Here is everyone that entails: Airi Akshar AngieKStan AntonB @Bomberv BradT50 broncosrule1999 brookie Budweiser @Charlitos Connor Cristi cullenistehbest Dakota Daleariel @dino Evan Fire GabCo Gabs @Ghutch Glaceon Goomybear IceBeast Jaded jadennator1 joeburrow JTee KaliMinaj @Kallie Luxray MarieEve mattychamps Medusaluh melanie Miami MotherFart @MrsChloeKayCecci NaughtyNacho Nenalala Nettles NickGQc Raai Ralts023 revi_ren Runaways SirVivor @Socks Sophie Space spartagow Spikedcurley starrydash style Thiii Thumper91 Wigglytuff Zofry Who do you guys believe deserves a second chance from this list? It would help if you saw their previous season beforehand, but if not...well, just let me know what you think anyway. This is a pretty strong list of second chancers!

In no particular order, these are 10 of the biggest pet peeves that I have with the overall site. Currently. Naturally I might change things in the future, but for now...these would be MY top 10. Can't wait to hear people mock me and disagree with all of them! 10. PEOPLE COPYING & PASTING THINGS YOU HAVE SAID/WRITTEN - Seriously, I don't get why people do this. Is this supposed to be a mockery thing? Like...you're making fun of the person by...copying/pasting something they've said? I see this all the time. I'll be in a game, and some clown will copy and paste something I wrote previously in the game, or my page bio, in the game itself. Just...why? It's so childish, weird, and just stupid. And most of all annoying. What have we devolved into where just copying/pasting something someone said...when what they said isn't even that big a deal...is supposed to be an 'insult'? 9. MALES PRETENDING TO BE FEMALES AND FEMALES PRETENDING TO BE MALES - And don't bring LGBTQ stuff into this. That isn't what I mean at all. I mean...there are SO many female avatars on the site...but there are males running the accounts. It's just...annoying. It feels so wrong constantly calling someone 'she' or 'her' when I hear from someone else that they're actually a guy in real life. WHY do people do this? And yes, if it's just LGBTQ stuff, sure whatever. But for everyone else...why do you do this? I wouldn't be caught dead changing my avatar to a female. I'm a male in real life, and I don't find it 'exciting' to roleplay as a female person on a website with other humans to play reality games. 8. ACTING LIKE YOU'RE ON AN ACTUAL REALITY SHOW WITH PSYCHOPATH WOMEN - You know those shows where women just act like constant, antagonistic villains that The Challenge constantly asks to play on their show? And are also going on House Of Villains, too? Just...the ones who are always catty, rude, loud, chaotic, obnoxious, and mean...for no reason other than...they think it's fun? Well, SO many people on the site act like that...when I'm CONFIDENT, in real life, they're anything BUT. There's likely a lot of quiet, introverted, insecure people on this site...who apparently just love to act like a psychopath? I don't get it. But I do know it's embarrassing as hell to see. 7. USING THE 'IT'S JUST A GAME' EXCUSE TO JUSTIFY BAD BEHAVIOR - I can't stand people who act like video games, or reality shows, or online games (like what this site does), or anything else are justifiable reasons to act like assholes and act like 'someone you're not'. As far as I'm aware, you're still YOU when playing a game...so how you act or treat others is still a showcase of your actual character. So when people act justifiably upset with how you treat them or use them, dismissing it and laughing "LOL it's just a game bro, go touch grass and relax" is incredibly disrespectful. It's like their feelings don't matter, and how YOU feel is the only 'reasonable' way to respond. We all deserve to feel how we want to feel, and while YOU might want to act like 'it's just a game and I'll act like a backstabbing dick all I want because who cares', someone else can act like 'I have no respect for how you treated me and you're just a bullying, cocky jerk who I want nothing to do with going forward'. Don't tell others how to feel, even involving something that you deem 'silly'. 6 - ILLITERACY - I mean, this is basically something that drives me crazy no matter where I am. I'm not saying I'm a perfect writer myself; I know I make my own mistakes. But the CONSTANT disregard for punctuation, grammar, spelling, capitalization...the cringe abbreviations...meme trash...it's so insanely painful to have to see. Again, I know what people are going to say: "It's the internet. Who cares? It doesn't matter." But...from my point of view, how you write is, again, a mirror to the level of respect you have for yourself. Do you seriously care so little about how embarrassing you look that you don't mind typing like a blind, drunk clown? Who cares what you're actually doing; I didn't realize that you should pick and choose what you can look stupid doing and what you can look smart doing. News to me. 5 - BLOG ABUSE - Obviously posting detailed blogs talking about things (like I am now), or posting BrantSteele fun results, or stuff like that is fine. What I mean is...just posting, like, 5-10 blogs in the span of an hour, each one with one or two words...or maybe some stupid picture or animated video...with you just acting like a clown and trying to do meme shit. Why are we posting blogs to just call someone out and say "I like your hair!" or something dumb like that? Just send them a DM! Why are we posting nonstop blogs to update every second of your life and what you're doing? It's so ridiculous looking at the blogs page, and seeing several blogs from the same person, all posted within the past half-hour, about...nothing. Just...literally dumb shit that doesn't matter. Just...why? 4 - FLOPPING - STOP. FUCKING. SAYING. YOU. FLOPPED! This is so insufferably annoying. Over and over and over and OVER again, people will whine "I flopped"...and when the results come up, they have one of the best scores of the round and weren't in any danger at all. Not only that, their 'flopped' score is 80% better than the next closest score. Not only is this infuriating to have to listen to, but it's also arrogant; it's like you're so much better than everyone else that you 'only' getting 8000 in Holey is somehow you 'flopping'...when others struggle to get to even 4000! Read the room, or at least step off your high horse and come back down to reality where the normal people are, and realize that most people aren't as 'amazing' as you...so stop talking down to people. Oh, and the 'nuked' bullshit is just as annoying, so knock that off, too. 3 - ABUSING DISCORD FOR 1-GAME NUMBERS - So you're accepting people on Discord? Very nice of you. Naturally it's a place where you only add people that you genuinely trust and WANT to keep, right? Oh...no, you're just...adding people so it's a bit more 'convenient' for you to write a DM or quick message to them during the current game you're in...and when push comes to shove you'll just stab them in the back without breaking a sweat? Okay, so...I hope you don't think I'm just gonna KEEP you on Discord after that performance. You don't just add someone...only to then stab them in the back after using them as a number...for a SINGLE GAME. That's so much effort to use someone, for a single game, that it's almost admirable...if it wasn't such a dick move. If you're gonna add someone on Discord, it should be someone you plan on KEEPING there and building a bond with going forward. Otherwise...just use the damn DMs/PMs in the game you're currently in, you lazy stooge! 2 - USING SOMEONE'S KINDNESS AGAINST THEM - This kinda piggybacks off what I just said with #3 and #7, but I feel it needs to be said. Here's an example. When I first joined this site, I was in a game with someone (whom I won't name here), and they said they wanted to work with me! I was excited, and since I'm a very loyal person, I was ready to do everything with them! And...they stabbed me in the back just a few rounds later, without any hesitation. So when I wind up in another game with this person, they try the EXACT same approach with me. They act all nice and kind to me and ask if I wanted to work with them, but I tell them to get lost and that I'm not going to be used by them again. They acted really offended and angry that I would DARE rebuke them, basically proving my point that they were putting on a facade and just trying to use me. That doesn't fly with me. If you give someone your word, you keep it. If you can't...at least be upfront and honest. That's what I always do; if I'm forced to make a choice between several people I like...I'll just be honest to the one I'm forced to cut instead of playing innocent. It's ridiculous. If someone is actually willing to be your friend and be your loyal ally through thick and thin...do NOT fucking throw that way over a goddamn game! Using numbers for one game isn't worth the same as having a permanent number for an infinite number of games down the line. Don't use and abuse others' kindness for your own gain. We don't need more of that in the world. 1 - MEME/PICTURE/ANIMATION/VIDEO/EMOJI SPAM - Like...are half of you people autistic or something? Or...have ADHD? Or...like, whatever mental deficiency goes with needing to just constantly posting moving/pictured shit? Profile after profile...just constant stupid pictures or videos of some dumb man or woman from a movie or reality show doing a pose or saying something. Game after game...posting emojis or pictures of random stuff instead of just typing comments. Blog after blog...oh look, here's an animated clip of this woman from Real Housewives Of America looking at the camera in a sassy way...wow, sure glad I posted this for everyone to see! I'm not saying this stuff can't be cute...when limited. But it's like you have a blank white wall in your bedroom, and you're like "I must cover every last inch of this white wall with photos, pictures from magazines, hideous artwork, banners, and more! More, more, more! COVER IT ALL!" Please, people...slow DOWN!

Quite possibly the best season of my series so far. Holy crap this one was amazing, from start to finish. Naturally, I must thank my cast of 20 Kovaze users, 10 being what I deem as 'Davids' (underdogs) and 'Goliaths' (top dogs). So I'll be sure to thank them here, and then give a synopsis of each episode this season, since it was fantastic: AngieKStan brookie cullenistehbest Dakota Fire Gabs @Ghutch joeburrow @Kallie MarieEve @MrsChloeKayCecci Nettles Raai revi_ren starrydash Tailslover13 Thiii Thumper91 Wigglytuff Zofry EPISODE 1 - revi_ren and Raai get things started on the right foot for the Davids by taking down starrydash and Fire in the opening reward. cullenistehbest finds themselves an idol, and then at the Goliath's tribal council, the Cincinnati Bengals' quarterback yet again bungles away their greatness by being the first one packing 7-3 over a Pokemon (AKA Wigglytuff). EPISODE 2 - The rise of the superpowered @MrsChloeKayCecci begins as they find themselves an idol, and this is just the start of their reign of terror. cullenistehbest has a major meltdown, agonizing over whether they should play their idol or not, ultimately deciding to gamble by NOT playing it. This proves to be a costly mistake, as they're sent packing over Nettles in a 7-3 vote. EPISODE 3 - Unhappy about being the backup target, Nettles finds an idol! AngieKStan goes berserk, melting down over losing the challenge, picking a fight with @MrsChloeKayCecci, and then leaving their five-person alliance! Despite ALL this insanity, the Goliaths ultimately decide that they simply do not want a Pokemon on their team, so they send Wigglytuff out over AngieKStan 7-2. EPISODE 4 - Following some fighting on the Goliath tribe, the Davids have to decide between meek Zofry and threatening Thumper91. Despite Tailslover13 wanting Thumper91 out, the tribe goes against his wishes and sends Zofry packing instead, 7-2. EPISODE 5 - Tribes are swapped, and Raai gets sent to exile, where they find an idol nullifier. Dakota, Fire, and Thiii have lots of lovey-dovey bonding going on between the three of them. The insane AngieKStan finds themselves an idol...and promptly melts down over it for some reason, which causes MarieEve to join them in melting down. Following a brookie meltdown, @Kallie decides to randomly leave their alliance! This baffling decision results in an even more baffling decision at tribal, as Nettles plays their idol on @Kallie...where they get 0 votes. Instead, Nettles themselves is voted out unanimously 4-1. EPISODE 6 - Raai rejoins the game...and promptly finds an idol to go with their idol nullifier! This apparently enrages brookie and @Kallie so much both of them go berserk and start fighting with both @Ghutch and Gabs (yet strangely not Raai themselves). Tempress AngieKStan is back at it, picking a major fight with @MrsChloeKayCecci, which prompts more fighting to go on around them with Thumper91, MarieEve, and starrydash. Tailslover13 then gets his tribe to vote out Fire at tribal to keep his fellow Davids safe, 3-1-1. EPISODE 7 - Another day, more fighting! MarieEve and starrydash are at it this time, and starrydash wears themselves out from this duel. brookie has another meltdown of their own, which terrifies Raai into wasting their idol on themselves...despite getting no votes at tribal. Instead, fed up with all the fighting, brookie is finally sent home for their behavior, 4-1. EPISODE 8 - It's merge time! The original Davids hold a slim 7-6 numbers edge. Tailslover13 manages to snag individual immunity. Despite @Kallie trying to flip on the Davids, it doesn't matter, as the vote split winds up in MarieEve becoming the first member of the jury in a 7-3-3 vote. EPISODE 9 - Tailslover13 finds himself a vote steal! The silent yet powerful @Ghutch then wins immunity, seemingly continuing the streak of good luck for the Davids! Unfortunately, the game is about to be flipped upside down for the Davids...permanently. Chaotic AngieKStan plays their idol on Dakota at tribal, negating 4 votes for them. A very close 4-3-1 vote then takes David @Kallie out of the game, and things only go downhill from there. EPISODE 10 - Frustrated with last tribal's vote, a motivated Tailslover13 wins immunity again. Then, when the vote comes down to two former Davids, they ultimately decide to sacrifice Thumper91 at last in a 6-3-1-1 vote, continuing to weaken the once-powerful Davids. EPISODE 11 - Even more enraged by what's going on, Tailslover13 wins immunity again out of frustration. Then, the mastermind @MrsChloeKayCecci finally decides to take over the game. Realizing they're the target, @MrsChloeKayCecci plays their idol at tribal, shocking everyone and negating 5 votes against them. Despite Tailslover13 seeing through this and trying to target AngieKStan, he's forced to watch one of his best friends, Thiii, be voted out instead 3-1-1. Then, if that wasn't stunning enough, @MrsChloeKayCecci then finds ANOTHER idol immediately afterwards! After the quiet revi_ren surprisingly wins immunity, starrydash is picked to be the next target. However, yet AGAIN, @MrsChloeKayCecci reads the situation perfectly, playing their idol on them, negating ANOTHER 5 votes at tribal! Raai is then sent out 3-1, much to the horror of Tailslover13, never properly using their idol nullifier on either of the two idols played by @MrsChloeKayCecci. EPISODE 12 - Having gone from a 7-6 majority to a 5-3 minority, the three remaining Davids are in trouble. Tailslover13 vows revenge on the remaining Goliaths for taking out his two best buddies in Raai and Thiii. The revenge has to win, though, as the rise of @MrsChloeKayCecci continues as they NOW win immunity after their two amazing previous tribal performances. Predicably, the three Davids can't do anything, and while Tailslover13 refuses to turn on either revi_ren or @Ghutch, the same can't be said for them, and revi_ren is sent to the jury 4-2-1-1. EPISODE 13 - With only two Davids left, @Ghutch pulls out a clutch immunity wins, while Dakota goes on to find the idol. Tailslover13 naturally does not like this at all and melts down, realizing he can't do anything without immunity or the idol. However, just as it looks like Tailslover13 is about to go home, Dakota throws a vote on @MrsChloeKayCecci out of irritation for how dangerous (and annoying) they're becoming. Along with @MrsChloeKayCecci and starrydash joining him, this allows Tailslover13 to survive the vote, FINALLY sending a furious AngieKStan to the jury in a 4-2-1 vote. FINALE - Feeling rejuvenated following his survival, Tailslover13 wins immunity to keep himself safe. The two Davids, @Ghutch and Tailslover13, attempt to target starrydash with their two votes. Dakota plays their idol, negating two votes for them. However, after a 2-2 tie, Tailslover13 is unable to save @Ghutch, and the second-to-last David is sent to the jury on the revote 3-1. Not enjoying almost going out, starrydash wins immunity at the final 5. Realizing he's in huge danger again, Tailslover13 picks a fight with Dakota to try and paint them in a bad light, while @MrsChloeKayCecci uses this as an opportunity to make a random alliance between the three of them after the latter's alliance with Gabs and starrydash dissolved earlier. Tailslover13 uses his vote steal at tribal, stealing the vote of starrydash and putting two votes on Gabs. With @MrsChloeKayCecci joining him, this leads to a shocking 3-1-1 vote to send Gabs to the jury. Feeling the heat, starrydash pulls out the final immunity, sending themselves to the final 3. Despite Dakota bonding with starrydash and trying to get them to take them to the final 3, starrydash thinks Dakota is the best one to try and take out Tailslover13 in fire, so they instead take @MrsChloeKayCecci with them to final 3. Dakota and Tailslover13 are forced to make fire for the last spot in the final 3. Unwilling to lose now after everything he and his fellow Davids went through, Tailslover13 pulls through, defeating Dakota and making them the final member of the jury. At the final trial, @MrsChloeKayCecci is ripped apart by the jury, annoyed with their attitude and callous behavior, including how often they backstabbed players for no reason. starrydash receives some praise for their gameplay, but ultimately gets criticized for coming alive too late and sometimes riding coattails. Tailslover13 is applauded for his resilience and fortitude in the face of adversity, his loyalty, his positivity, and his intelligence, although his emotional outbursts toward the end did receive some criticism. Ultimately, Tailslover13 wins the game in a 6-3-1 vote over starrydash and @MrsChloeKayCecci respectively, ultimately allowing a David to win after completely blowing their majority power at the merge. The psychotic AngieKStan wins Fan Favorite for their chaotic, hilarious gameplay. SEASON LINK: https://brantsteele.com/survivor/37/r.php?c=Dy5Qw82Y

Not just this site, but in the world in general. Like...I don't fit in. Not only do I not matter (I haven't for 35 years and counting), but I just don't fit. The way I think...the things I feel...the things I say, the way I act, the ideals and morals that I hold deal...nobody else cares or is the same. And I'm always left feeling like the odd man out...of everything. No matter how much loyalty, honesty, integrity, kindness, understanding, joy, laughter, and intelligence I share with others...it all just gets thrown back in my face. Time and time and time and time again. If it's not my evil family and what abusive, evil, money-hungry, horrible monsters they are...if it wasn't the 12 years of hell that people call 'school'...if it wasn't day after day of online assholes...it's just everything. Like...I'm clearly only here to just be a stepping stone for others to use and abuse. A pawn. A tool. If God was playing The Sims when he made me, he made me leave the house as a toddler and left me to die on my own because he made a mistake and didn't just kill me immediately to atone for that mistake. When you're used and bullied and mocked and belittled and treated like shit as much as I am...no matter how hard I try to open up to people, to be nice to them, to give them my full heart...it really shouldn't be surprise by how much I don't trust people. Just WHY I have such an ever-growing list of 'enemies' on this site...and in the world in general. It shouldn't be a surprise. Oh, and spare me your "You need to get help" or "Speak to a counselor" or "You shouldn't be on this site because it's just fun and games and you take this shit too seriously" and "You're messed up" and all your other bullshit. Save it...and promptly shove it up your arrogant asses. Spew your bullshit rhetoric and obnoxious garbage I've had to hear my whole life to a brick wall. The point of me making this blog is to make people understand that I'm not like all of you. You can't just be nice to me one day...or one game...and then turn right around and stab me in the back the very next day/game and expect me to just be 'cool' with it. I won't be...and I will never be. I'm NOT you goddamn fucking toy to use as you see fit. Yeah, these 'games' are meant for fun? Then don't fucking treat those you're playing them with as NOTHING MORE THAN TOOLS OR PAWNS FOR YOU TO WIN WITH AND THEN DISCARD! I don't even know what true kindness, love, loyalty, honesty, and integrity even are. Because anyone who has claimed to offer me some or all of those things...just lied later on and stabbed me in the back, or proved to be two-faced, hypocritical liars who are only out for themselves. Even though I suppose that's just human nature: we're all fucked-up, flawed, selfish pieces of garbage who only care about ourselves and looking out for number one. Well, I'm not that...but since everyone else IS...again, I'm not meant to be here. I wonder how many more days, weeks, months, and even years I'm gonna be stuck on this planet...only God knows how long I must suffer.

Maddie jaysuhn Lover These three toxic assholes basically just spent an entire Arena game (well, for as long as I lasted) targeting me with personal attacks, toxicity, cruelty, and nastiness. Talking about how "nobody loves you in real life", "you live with your parents", "you probably have a lot of fat folds rolling off you", "you're a furry loser and this place has no place for your kind", and other gross shit. I did nothing to warrant this, and this is just pathetic. I thought you learn to grow out of this shit when you're in middle or high school. Like, are these children, or just grown idiots with no lives? Either way, I'm not putting up with this bullshit. There's trash-talk during gameplay that everyone participates in...and then there's the type of shit you see from Survivor: Worlds Apart like with Will/Shirin. There's a line you don't cross when bullying and attacking someone. And I'm not putting up with it. Nobody should. Oh, and PS, thank you for standing up for me, @DanceMonkey and Thiii. You both are wonderful.