I'm embarrassed

to have my darkest and most toxic moments from the past cast into the spotlight, but I'm also grateful for the reminder of who I was and how far I've come, but I know there's still a long way left to go. I'm also grateful for all the people who have shown me grace and forgiveness and have allowed me to exist in this space peacefully and I hope that I can stay far away from the pit of despair from which I once came and I hope that I can do my part to be a positive part of this community and to help make it great. I also want to say in case it wasn't clear XXXTentacion was a demonic monster and I disgracefully denounce the fact that I ever supported or felt the need to defend him. and I wish that I could just leave it at that, but I do feel the need to say that I am very sad for all the people who have died too young, and it's very possible that those who contributed to their own demise could've grown to redeem themselves.