I'M REALLY ANNOYED AND UPSET

I WAS IN THE BATHROOM THE OTHER DAY CHECKING OUT MY VAGINA. I HAVEN'T SEEN IT IN YEARS DUE TO MY LARGE STOMACH SHADOWING OVER IT, BUT SINCE MY TUMMY TUCK I NOW HAVE A CLEARER VIEW. ANYWAY I HAD ONE LEG UP ON THE WALL, WHILST HOLDING MY PHONE TRYNA SNAP A PIC OF IT SO I COULD CHECK IT OUT. LONG STORY SHORT, I SENT A SNAPCHAT OF IT TO SIN BY ACCIDENT. HE REPLIED TO MY SNAP AND SAID "CUTE LOTUS HON!" AND WE GIGGLED. WE THEN GOT ON TO THE TOPICS OF LOTUSES, AND HE TOLD ME TO WATCH THE WHITE LOTUS AS I HAD NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE. SO I BINGED IT AND I JUST FINISHED SEASON 2 TODAY, AND I'M REALLY UPSET TANYA DIED. SHE WAS MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER :{