i'm sorry

DK I’m sorry. I’m genuinely, truly, deeply, unbelievably sorry. I know I’ve said “I’m sorry” before, but this time I really mean it. And I know saying that probably sounds like something someone says when they’re trying to get out of trouble, but I swear that’s not what I’m doing. I’m sorry for what I did, I’m sorry for what I said, I’m sorry for what I didn’t say, I’m sorry for how I made you feel, and I’m sorry that I even have to be sitting here apologizing in the first place. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for every little thing. I’m sorry for the big things too. I’m sorry for the things you noticed, and I’m sorry for the things you didn’t notice. I’m sorry for the moments where I should have thought before I acted. I’m sorry for the moments where I acted before I thought. I’m sorry for assuming things. I’m sorry for misunderstanding things. I’m sorry for explaining myself when I should have just listened. I’m sorry for not explaining myself when I should have. I’m sorry for everything. And I know what you’re probably thinking: “Okay, you said sorry. What else is there to say?” Well... I’m sorry. Because one “sorry” doesn’t feel like enough. Two “sorrys” don’t feel like enough. Ten “sorrys” don’t feel like enough. A hundred “sorrys” wouldn’t feel like enough. If I could say sorry enough times to completely erase what happened, I would. If I could rewind time and change everything, I would. If I could go back to the exact moment where things went wrong and make the right choice instead, I would. But I can’t. So all I can do is say... I’m sorry. I’m sorry for making you upset. I’m sorry for making you annoyed. I’m sorry for making you disappointed. I’m sorry if I made you feel like I didn’t care, because I do care. I care more than I probably know how to explain. I’m sorry if my actions didn’t show that. I’m sorry if my words didn’t show that. I’m sorry if there was ever a moment where you questioned whether I cared. I’m sorry. And I know that eventually I have to stop saying sorry and actually do better. I know an apology means more when it comes with change. I know I can’t just keep saying “I’m sorry” forever and expect everything to magically become okay. But unfortunately... I’m going to keep saying it. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for saying sorry so much. Actually, I’m sorry for apologizing for apologizing. And I’m sorry for making this apology unnecessarily long. But also... I’m sorry that I’m not sorry about making it unnecessarily long because I still have more to say. I’m sorry. I’m sorry yesterday. I’m sorry today. I’m sorry tomorrow in advance. I’m sorry for every possible version of the situation. I’m sorry for every alternate timeline where I somehow make the same mistake in a completely different universe. I’m sorry across every dimension. I’m sorry in every language. I’m sorry in every possible font. I’m sorry in lowercase. i’m sorry. I’M SORRY. I'm sorry. I’m... sorry. I’m sorry with a comma, I’m sorry with a period. I’m sorry with an exclamation point! I’m sorry with three exclamation points!!! I’m sorry with an ellipsis... I’m sorry. And just when you think I’m finished... I’m sorry. There is no ending. There is no conclusion. There is no final sentence. There is only... I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. And after all of that... I’m still not finished. Because there will always be one more thing I can apologize for. So, once again... I’m sorry. And I will probably continue saying sorry until the end of time. Which, honestly... I’m sorry about that too.