I’ll just say it

Texas is a disaster and despite my extreme dedication and passion, myself and some other teachers are effectively being laid off this year. They told us with 20 days of school left that they are “restructuring” the district and taking positions away. This doesn’t make sense because student enrollment has gone up, and the need for teachers has gone up, there’s already vacancies at my school and others in my district, but the people responsible for these decisions see teachers and students as numbers. They are concerned only with lining their pockets. I can’t begin to tell you how many glowing reviews and endorsements I got this year from all of my observations. I did not have a single poor observation. I got some of the best “results” of my career thus far, and I still got the boot. I’ll know *for sure* if my spot has been taken away in a few weeks, but I was basically told to prepare myself for the worst. I’ve been a wreck since. I mean I’m actually a disaster. I love my kids so much and I wanted to be able to watch them grow up. I don’t want to leave. I can’t even finish writing about this because I’m already crying I’ll just leave it at that. I hate what this state has done to public schools. I hate that upper admin gets double/triple the salary and does what is WORST for children. Currently every school district in my part of the state is doing the same thing, so I’m at a crossroads in my life where I’m either going to have to move or change careers. I have no motivation to even get out of bed, let alone make that decision. I’m not religious but I’ll take prayers or thoughts or anything. This is my rock bottom. I’m sorry if I go dark on people. I’ve gone dark on everyone right now, and I’m only on here because I signed up for the race tournament before I got this news. Anyways good luck everyone