I moved enough to log on and cheer, bye again

Gabs I too look forward to not speaking to you after this because you were the exact person I saw you as before coming in, that you are conniving, manipulative, and rude to anyone that doesn’t play the game as you expect it to, and assume a victim role to gain sympathy. You did it to my friend Nick in the Big Brother game, and so you saying that it was „strategy“ is humoring because this definitely wasn’t an act, it’s who you are, and you should own it. And calling the cast toxic when you literally just stated you were fighting people as strategy, you are actually crazy. Also to any Brazilians I saw supporting this, it’s on sight, you will not know peace in future games as long as I’m there. See you never xoxo

I will say what pisses me off, who pisses me off, why they or it pisses me off, and I'm going to have fun doing it instead of living in a bubble of fake positivity that people force themselves into so they don't have to ever be confronted with problems. You can't stop me just because you can't handle it, a lot of you crash out over the slighest ounce of criticism for foul behavior or invalidating your efforts at gaining your status or attention. A lot of you are comfortable letting your friends be cunts, or actively encourage bad behavior because it will get you Final 3 in a Hysteria, and I just simply do not roll that way.

But how have you done in Celebs? I'm not gonna hear from a 15th placer how I was supposed to play a game that they barely even got any context on ijbol

https://www.kovaze.com/celebrities_poll/17582

Here's just a glimpse of another day in the Celebrities House Vote SirVivor: https://kovaze.com/celebrities_poll/17582

JACK_O_LANTERN

publicly voted against me in Celebs, it's devastating

But you made a weird blog coming for my body and proudly flexed „ragebaiting“ me after I didn’t pay attention to you for months, got it :/

Gabbes You’re a stupid hoe

if I write German into Google Translate that someone is an alcoholic, a terrible person, a bully, cruel, fat, ugly, etc. is it going to be okay when I copy the English translated version? Is that less rude then?

This Celebrities game made me realize more than ever that a lot of the Brazil community around this website acts like a cult. Gabs told me all about the WhatsApp group that exists where people are readily available to be summoned for votes on speed dial, and the amount of people blogging in Gabs‘ name while trying to make everyone else look bad or racist has been quite absurd. I’ve taken my notes, and I think it’s appalling behavior the way people act like victims and paint people like me, Paulette, and Medusa in a bad light because we’re not Brazilian and so their go-to phrase is that we are treating Gabs terribly ONLY for being Brazilian. Gabs was treated the same way he treated us, and I even kept my composure and stayed friendly through a week full of arrogance and intimidation. He’s not the victim he’s making himself out to be, and he proudly uses his Brazilian „community“ as an intimidation tool, and I find that just a bit weird.

Honestly I’m surprised, I never thought I would have the ability to survive a poll but that just adds that special extra on top for me. Prior to claims by Gabs, I did not come into the game with a chunk of pre-established friends. I had to form many new relationships or reconnect to people I haven’t spoken to in a VERY long time, and I invested a lot of time trying to get to know my competitors, and be in good standings with everyone. I worked with players very notorious to others in the house such as Slayking123 and Lifeiscool and when their games were left exposed, I managed to stay in the shadows and seek new avenues without the threat of being viewed as a flipper. I had great relationships with almost everyone in the game, which kept me out of any sets until the Final 7. Paulette, Medusahluh, Glitter, LoSeR, and Jordan were among my main allies in the game, and I kept up good relationships with some key players in Tatum and Cold as well. I kept every door open until it was no longer possible. Gabs may be claiming that his back was up against the wall, and he had a tough journey where no one wanted to play with him but the truth is that this was very self-inflicted as he spent more time being arrogant and rude to people than actually trying to figure out any plans. He might as well have purchased a cameo by Russell Hantz as that would’ve reflected his behavior in the game more but that certainly isn’t good publicity. I was chunked in with everyone else as anti-Brazil and xenophobic despite the fact that I am also a second language English speaker who lives in Europe, all because it suited the narrative at the current time, but I stand by the fact that I did not willingly contribute to the nominations of Gabs and Ricardo early on. I knew it would be a terrible look. Ultimately, I can say that I rocked this game on my own, and I will leave this game authentically myself. I didn’t hide my personality behind that of a reality TV character, and I didn’t lie about being this perfect little angel that’s being bullied by everyone, I just played a tough strategic game, and I played it well because I wanted to go as far as possible. The old man still got it, I can still kick ass in Stars :) I would appreciate any votes to win, it seems like a battle against the odds with a flavor in play but stranger things have happened: https://www.kovaze.com/celebrities_poll/17582 Good luck also to Paulette who was easily one of my main allies, and also played a fantastic game, and to Abi-Maria Gomes who I loved on Survivor and Sequester.

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What made this endgame incredibly tough to navigate is that not only did I have to tread carefully in a middle position, I would get berated and talked down at for having an opinion that was not just "yes" - I was asked for my honest opinion during the game twice by Gabs & Tatum, and I gave them my honest opinion, and it was met immediately with abuse, threats, and intimidation Gabs immediately made me a counter for 7th because I said I want to think about whether Glitter and Paulette is a smart set for me because it would make me a target, and Tatum had a similar angry reaction to me for being "selfish" - I was labeled as cruel and had the "Brazilian votes" threatened against me, literally for stating opinions in the game. This is truly what made this game difficult, and also why Gabs went up many times. They were quick to belittle people for not agreeing with them, and often would stonewall people in situations where people could have been flexible. Especially in the endgame he made me a counter almost every single round, and then wouldn't understand why I was nominating him in return. I don't think many of you understand how hard it is to go unnominated until Final 4 in a game that had multiple lunatics who just wanted to fight and be messy lmao

@PityParty How are you going to blame Paulette and I for this endgame when you were entirely responsible for dismantling the alliance that could have rallied the numbers to go for Gabs and Medusa earlier? You literally forced me into a position where I had to play both sides and knock people out with more tact, which didn't leave a lot of room for me to just nominate them together if I didn't want to get put up myself lmao

https://kovaze.com/blog/130861

Should I shake a little ass or what do the fans want to see!

https://kovaze.com/blog/130861